Zezin wrote:ProfAllister wrote:You've stated that you have had issues growing up. In a sense, you saw the students at Yamaku as "your people."
Please.
Aside from Hanako they don't know how good they have it. I went to a school for the MENTALLY disabled. Those places are living hell. Unlike Yamaku they
DO make you feel like the left over scraps of what was supposed to be a human being. It would be without exaggeration the equivalent of a jail if they decided to put bars in the doors of the dorm rooms.
I was lucky enough to be allowed to return to public school after three years. I know that I and EVERY kid back in my school would have switched lives with a Yamaku student in a heart-beat. Then returning to Public School was far from the end of it. (I just went over this speech a minute ago) but due to my disorder I am incapable of adapting to a social situation on my own. I have to be TOLD how to interact, and you know how different teachers think interaction should be and how it really is. Kids would take advantage of my confusion every day and torment me and laugh at how awkward I was.
And that's the easy part but like I said I've been over this speech once today. I don't feel like going over this whole thing twice so I'll leave it there.
But no. NO ONE that has had the benefit of staying in a normal school their entire life will ever look human to me.
(Apologies if this sounds harsh. I've tried to keep this positive, but it's hard to address this subject matter honestly without dipping into the surrounding negativity.)
Please.
Life isn't a pissing match about who's suffered the most.
I concede that you've had a hard life. I concede that I will never understand how bad you've had it. I'd express my respect for you pulling through, but you wouldn't want me patronizing you.
But when you turn your suffering into a badge of honor, and start judging other people by that standard, you're no better than the rich bitch who ostracises the girls that can't afford Louis Vuitton handbags.
You asked for help. It shouldn't come as a shock when there are sub-humans who think they might be able to provide insight. They don't need your condescension. Try as you might, you can't pull yourself up by dragging others down.
There is a universality to human experience. People don't have the same experiences, but they respond in a similar manner to similar circumstances. Timmy may have no worries greater than keeping his girlfriend happy and keeping his grades passing, but that doesn't mean he hasn't had a valid human experience. He may have a different perspective than you, but he has hopes, he has dreams, and he has his own personal struggles.
Your life was hell, you have severe social difficulties, and your problems are far more crippling than Timmy's. I can accept that. But if the fact that Timmy didn't suffer to get where he is lowers his value in your eyes, Timmy's not the problem. You are. And this isn't something that can be blamed on a Visual novel, a circumstance of your upbringing, or anything else. You're the one making the choice, and it's not Timmy's humanity you're denying. It's your own.
You imply that you were told through much of your life that you were different. Now you're the one insisting that you're different. If you keep setting yourself aside and rejecting attempts at human contact, don't be surprised when people start agreeing with you.
