My thinking is like this:
IRL there's actually this girl I'm kind of seeing right now. It's a new thing and I don't know where it's going, if anywhere—these things tend to fizzle out for me, because I'm positively awful
—but we're mutually interested and that's pretty cool.
But okay. Look at the sentence I just wrote. It's nuanced, right? There are complexities
being expressed. My relationship with this other girl is weird and I don't know where I stand and there's a lot of important exterior context I haven't even brought up
. Because that's how these things go. Life is not simple. There are ambiguities and starts and stops and sometimes things don't actually go anywhere.
So imagine how diminishing it would feel to me if somebody pointed to myself and this other girl and said "Lawlololol
, you two are a yuri pairing!"
Like, y'all understand? I'm a queer woman
. That's not, like, some character I roleplay on these boards for shits and giggles. That's my actual life
, that I go out and live (albeit really badly
). I get that my audience here is primarily male and certainly I love entertaining people with my writing, but it's also not my fucking job, nor my aspiration, to cream their twinkies. It's no secret that I draw from a lot of my personal experience in my writing, so why the fuck would any story penned by me devolve into some shallow, excessively physically intimate romance? Especially
in the first act of my story. Remind me again: how many sex scenes did 4LS include in Act One of KS
? My memory isn't fantastic but I'm pretty sure it was a number between one and negative-one.
There is female-female romance in my story. I guarantee it, if that's what it takes to keep people reading. But I'm writing it on my
terms. This isn't a shipping fic or a femslash fic or whatever other label people use to pigeonhole stories. (It is
a divergence fic, admittedly, but that's a whole other can of worms). This is a dramatic story with a romantic subgenre. It'd be great if people would just take that as it is without asking me—with implicit impatience—"where da yuri at."
(both the web series and the classic novella) is fantastic and everyone should check it out.
EDIT: It also bears mentioning that I wrote a story here that was positively dripping with homoromantic subtext
and literally nobody caught on without my walking them through it.