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by ArazelEternal » Sun Feb 21, 2016 1:05 pm
*THUD*
My fist violently silences the blaring in my ears that is my alarm clock. The damned thing brings an all too early end to a night of fitful sleep. It seems that darkness is not my friend as of late. Even when tired I have trouble actually sleeping. I doubt my pills were all there was to blame for the last night though. Thoughts of Lily still swarm around in my mind. I have no idea how I am going to rectify this situation, if there really is one. If it really is still jet lag that is bothering her, that can't be healthy. In another day it will be a week since they have returned from their trip.
After wearing out every excuse as to why I haven't gotten up yet, I crawl out of my bed into the open air of the room. Without thinking about it, I toss back a handful of my morning pills without even water as a chaser. Strange how automatic such a thing becomes, not that it is anything but a good thing seeing as what they are for. Gathering a clean uniform, I head to the shower and prepare for class. Today is saturday, half day of classes. Normally it's just appreciated to have more time to myself. Today it is a blessing. I dont think Id make it through an entire day of classes today.
***
Glorious AC. They seem to have fixed the broken unit that made it hot as the inside of a volcano in here yesterday. I was afraid it would be another day that would end up having everyone pass out from heat exhaustion. Just as I am appreciating the convenience of modern technology, I am disturbed by a thump on the top of my desk. Miki…. I should have guessed.
There she sits looking down at me with her chesire cat like grin. She seems to have a habit of doing that whenever I'm thinking about something.
“Somethin’ on your mind?” A tilt of her head comes with the question. She really is a curious girl. She seems rather adept at picking such things out. Is she a mind reader, or just unusually observant? The latter. Definitely the latter. I don't want to think about the former lest I start sounding like Kenji. Banish those thoughts.
“Thinkin’ ‘bout that blonde amazon?” …..No, don’t start thinking that again.
Before I can stop myself, I find that I let out a long sigh pretty much confirming her thoughts in itself. “Yeah. I suppose you noticed that she hasn't been around in the last few days.”
“What’s with that? You three are usually inseparable outside of class. Did something happen?”
Looking up at her I wonder. Is she asking because she is genuinely concerned, or just to have something to talk about? As much as I would like it to be the first, it is more likely the second. Anyone who has paid attention would notice the three of us spending a lot of time together, especially for lunch time.
“Yeah. It's something that has seemed to cause quite a rift between us. It isn't any secret anymore that Hanako and I are dating. I don't know how many people actually know, but it isn't as if we are trying to hide it. That all happened before Lilly came back from Scotland, so naturally she was one of the last to find out about it. Hanako and I both met up with her in her dorm room and told her together that we were dating. She said that she approved of our relationship. Not that her approval is really needed, but you know how she is with Hanako. From there she seemed to almost kick us out of her room without actually kicking us out and we haven't seen much of her since. I’m not sure what to think about that. She has even refused to see Hanako a time or two now.”
I really don't know why I am laying all this on her. It isn't like she needs to know, or like there is much she can do about it for us. Maybe I just want someone to talk to about it. Unloading it all at once like that has helped me feel a bit better, even if I am not really any closer to a solution that i was before.
“Who knew that she would have a jealous streak t’ her…” Miki’s face was pensive, but only for a moment before she shrugged. “Sorry. Not much I can do for ya. Just don't rush into it is all I can say. Being rash will only make things worse than better.” She hopped down from the desk and went to her own just before the bell signaling the start of class sounded. As per usual Mutou comes into class a moment or two late, already having started his speech for the day on what material we would be studying.
I guess we are working in groups again today. As usual I find myself surrounded by the pair of Shizune and Misha. However Hanako is joining us as well today. She has been joining us in our study groups since we started dating. Even Shizune who had a dislike for her through her dislike for Lilly had accepted that she would be joining us. Maybe she has realized that excluding Hanako would do absolutely no good as it is not her that the problem resides with, but Lilly herself. It's hardly fair to judge one person based solely on another.
Again, Shizune's enthusiastic back-of-the-hand slap to get the assignment started. With a minimum of fuss we all get onto the work ahead of us. Thankfully today seems to be a fairly light load. We should be able to finish before the end of class so our weekend will be totally open.
***
*bell*
Lunch time. Also the end of classes for the day. I gather my stuff in my bag and wait for Hanako to do the same while I swing my bag over my shoulder. “You ready?”
She nods just as she is clasping her bag closed and places the strap on her shoulder.
Together we head to our dorm rooms and drop off our school bags, then head to the gates and begin the trek down the hill to the town below to stock up our supplies at the Aura-Mart. What is unexpected is… Lily, right there ahead of us going the same direction.
I turn to Hanako who is looking back at me, her face having the very same expression mine must have. Lilly usually heads to the Aura-Mart on Fridays rather than Saturdays. Why would she switch her days, unless it is the same reason that we made the switch. To avoid running into her at an inopportune time.
Nodding together, we take hands and walk behind her for a short time before saying anything to her. I'm the first to break the silence, though I'm sure Lilly already knew that someone was behind her even if she didn't know who.
“Hey, Lilly.”
She stops and perks her head up in her recognizable way, making it obvious that I caught her attention.
“Oh my… might that be Hisao?”
“Yeah. And Hanako is with me as well.”
The revelation of this info seems to give her pause. I can see the thoughts going through her head. Should she turn around and go back to the dorms to avoid being with us, or should she go anyway. If she is with us rather than alone it will make shopping for her much easier to do. The latter wins out in her mind. She starts walking the path to the store again and we follow suit.
“Have you two been well?”
A simple question. She is making small talk to try and dispel the rather awkward silence that settled around us as we ran into each other.
“Yeah. Well enough I suppose. Though my insomnia is acting up again. Couldn't sleep right these last few days.”
This visibly concerned her, enough to give her a slight hitch in her stride as she walked along. That at least shows that she doesn't hate or dislike us. If she did, why would that give her reason for concern?
“Do take care of yourself, Hisao. Not only for your sake, but Hanako’s as well.”
That was the last that she would say on the subject. We walk the rest of the way in a heavy silence that not one person seems to want to break. Hanako was quiet the entire time, I think because she had no idea how to address Lilly at the time. After her company being turned down a couple times in the last week, I can see how it would be difficult to engage her in a conversation.
It is incredibly awkward in Aura-Mart. Like she had done before, Lilly places a hand on my shoulder and I guide her around, getting both her and my items as we cover the place. This isn't the comfortable stroll it normally was for us. I can't relax. I feel like my legs have turned wooden and stiff. Soon enough the ordeal is over. No nonsense or anything, very business like. She takes her purchases and heads out on her own, leaving Hanako and I behind in the store. We both glance at each other, suddenly very tired of the whole thing. I help Hanako get what she needs and we leave as soon as we make our own purchases.
Being such a nice day, we bought food items that were easy to eat in the park near by. However what just happened with Lilly makes it hard to enjoy our food as we sit in the shade of a tree that allows a nice view of the park and the road that skirts it, the odd car or bike passing by now and then.
We sit there, eating our food in silence as I'm sure we are both thinking about what to do next. Out of anyone I know Hanako knows the most about Lily, though she seems to be just as lost as I am. Thinking about it though, almost anyone in this school is going to know her better than I would. Maybe I will do a bit of asking around. One of the other girls may have some suggestion I can go on so I don't end up blowing things up instead of fixing them.
***
Sunday.
After talking to a few of the girls in my class, I've got a few ideas though, I'm really no closer to a solution than I was before. I stand before room 329, Miki Miura. I asked a few girls that I've run into on my way here where her room was, and I was given this location. I reach out for her door and go to open it, but stop myself just before doing so. The hell was I thinking? I was about to waltz right into a girls room, and one of a girl that I really don't know all too well on top of it. That would have ended real well I am sure.
Steeling myself with a sigh, I give a few light raps on her door. “Miki, It’s me, Hisao.”
Almost as soon as I finish my words, I hear her say “Come in, its open.”
I open the door and step in, and the sight before me stops me in my tracks. There Miki stands in the middle of her room with her left hand on her hip. That isn't what has me though. No. She is standing there wearing not but a white tank top and blue-white striped panties. The color combination with her dark skin is rather arresting, nothing to say of her current state of dress - and total lack of modesty. My mind has come to a sudden halt, finding myself quite dumbfounded and unsure of what to do next. This fact gives her no end of entertainment. She laughs at my rather stricken expression and moves behind me to close the door.
“So what’cha here for? What’s on your mind kid? Ya must have a reason if you came ta see me.” After her question to me she sits on her bed and motions for me to take the chair in front of her desk.
Finally my brain catches up with the rest of me and I can react. I clear my throat and sit, formulating how I want to explain my situation to her after my thought process got rather derailed. “Well, it’s about what I talked to you about the other day in the classroom. I'm trying to figure out what is going on with Lilly and if she is jealous of Hanako and I, if its something different, or a combination of the two.”
“Hmmmm.” She sighs and looks up at the ceiling for a moment, apparently trying to recall something. “I take it that with how often the three of you hung out you have met her sister, Akira.”
I nod. An interesting person, Akira is. Though that is not the point of me being here.
“I have no way to know if this is true or not, but I have heard that there are some things going on with the family. Akira and Lilly have been summoned back to Scotland to be with the family from the sound of it.”
“Back to Scotland? Have you heard why?”
Miki shakes her head slowly. “No, I haven't heard anything on that. Keep in mind that what I know I haven't heard directly from the source, more through the grapevine so who knows how true any of it is. As prevalent as it is though, there has to be at least a small part of truth to the matter.”
If true that certainly would explain the way she has been lately. That alone would make anyone standoff-ish. Then hearing the news that Hanako and I are now and item on top of that could indeed cause some complex feelings, especially if she really was harboring some feelings for me.
Hasn’t this gotten complicated. Two different issues weighing down on her mind. Both issues are going to have to be rectified in some fashion before this is going to get any better. Making the decision of whether she wants to go back to be with her family in Scotland on a permanent basis, and how she feels about Hanako and I. The fact that she isn't going to get to be with the person that she has feelings for at all before she leaves, much less not getting the chance to tell that person how she feels.
I suppose though the only way to get any of this sorted out is to go to the person in question directly. Problem though. How do I get someone who doesn't want to see me to talk to me? Though that is only an assumption. She may be waiting for me to make the first move here.
“Anyway, don't act before you know all the details. This is just heresay. Go to Lilly directly and talk to her before deciding anything. Don't make any rash decisions. Do that and this will only explode violently in your face.” Miki says this with a remarkably gentle expression. “You’re a good guy, Hisao. I would hate to see you get yourself into a bad place.”
I thank her and give her my regards before leaving her room and returning to my own. I need to do some thinking before I make any moves at all.
Lilly = Hanako, Emi, Rin, Shizune
I fell in love with Lilly and Hanako
You are not alone, and you are not strange. You are you, and everyone has damage. Be your Emiest.
