The "feels" bazaar.

[Zezin]

What a funny phase. The only victims in a suicide is those left behind. Suicide is for weak minded people who given up on life instead of growing a pair.

And that was the logic I was using when I said that.

Anyway... for anyone here who still gives to craps about me (honestly I whine a lot so I don't expect anyone to)
The big sister figure I mentioned earlier we had an encounter with each other. I will just recap how it went.

She tried to talk to me, I blew her off. She asked me what was wrong and I told her that I felt she was just "another one of them" I was referring to people who just want to help the "special" kid to clear their own conscience. After some petty arguing on the subject I just fell on my knees crying (I am so glad it was 1st hour so everyone was too tired to give a fuck) and then she hugged me. It looked a lot like the scene when Hisao hugged Hanako while she was crying, except she hugged me from the front. I just buried my face in her chest and cried for a few minutes (again at any other time of the day I would've made a scene).

So yeah that's one person back in my small circle of friends.

[ravenlord]

Keep hanging in there man. You are stepping in the right direction.

[Pyramid Head]

What a funny phase. The only victims in a suicide is those left behind. Suicide is for weak minded people who given up on life instead of growing a pair.

And that was the logic I was using when I said that.

Anyway... for anyone here who still gives to craps about me (honestly I whine a lot so I don't expect anyone to)
The big sister figure I mentioned earlier we had an encounter with each other. I will just recap how it went.

She tried to talk to me, I blew her off. She asked me what was wrong and I told her that I felt she was just "another one of them" I was referring to people who just want to help the "special" kid to clear their own conscience. After some petty arguing on the subject I just fell on my knees crying (I am so glad it was 1st hour so everyone was too tired to give a fuck) and then she hugged me. It looked a lot like the scene when Hisao hugged Hanako while she was crying, except she hugged me from the front. I just buried my face in her chest and cried for a few minutes (again at any other time of the day I would've made a scene).

So yeah that's one person back in my small circle of friends.

This can be hard, i'm speaking from experience here, but you really should give people a chance. Even if it leads to occasional negative experiences, cutting yourself off from friends and family is bad for your head. But, if you've made a start than i may just be stating the blindingly obvious to you. Eh, still, i've been in a similar rough patches during my mid teens, somehow it feels wrong of me to see this but not offer some advice as someone who got through those years relatively sane.

[Merlyn_LeRoy]

You might want to check out the Missing Stars forum at http://www.somnovastudios.org/forum

MS is "KS with mental disorders" so there are a lot of people with various disorders, including some who have been in a school environment like yours (including at least 1 dev; about 1/3 of the devs have mental disorders).

There's even a thread for people to talk about disorders here: http://somnovastudios.org/forum/viewtop ... f=34&t=352

They're all pretty much KS fans too.

[Zezin]

You might want to check out the Missing Stars forum at http://www.somnovastudios.org/forum

MS is "KS with mental disorders" so there are a lot of people with various disorders, including some who have been in a school environment like yours (including at least 1 dev; about 1/3 of the devs have mental disorders).

There's even a thread for people to talk about disorders here: http://somnovastudios.org/forum/viewtop ... f=34&t=352

They're all pretty much KS fans too.

I'm not entirely sure how I'd handle it though. I have already made therapy useless because of my repressed memories. I'm afraid of how I'd react to something that hit closer to home.I'll try it but if I lose it, I'll be holding you to my trauma.

[djuroi]

I just finished Katawa Shoujo, and i can't stop myself from constantly looking back on it. I went down the Emi path with no walkthroughs or guides and got the good ending. Whenever i try and start a new game to try Lilly's path i just cant do it, i feel as though Emi has forgotten me after everything we have been through, i know its just a game but i cant stop myself from feeling as though it was all real and Emi had an actual bond with me. It sounds stupid if i try to tell someone because it just sounds as though i'm crazy. Did anyone else feel like this? Lost and happy, sad and confused? Why does it feel like i actually knew Emi even though she's just an anime character? WTF is happening to me!?

[Megumeru]

Welp, call the medical team! We have a case of FEELS that needs attention STAT.

Don't worry bud, it's normal. Most people here went through that phase after one route or another.

[djuroi]

But every time i see a picture of Emi, i feel as though i have some real bond with her, making it impossible to replay the game for another route.

[ravenlord]

Welcome to KS!

You're in the right place



As far as your first route, there is no hurry to move on. Enjoy it and savor it like a fine sipping wine. Eventually the time will come when you can try a new route, but until then just bask in the experience.. try some Emi fan-fiction and fan art -- there is a ton around in many websites or find it via google. Basically just ride the wave!

[Yellow 13]

Enjoy your new waifu

[OtakuNinja]

Play her bad end. That should help you move on to the other girls.

[Nekken]

First things first: you're not alone. Many people have a reaction very similar to this.

That said, it's important to do the other paths: it'll help you reestablish the emotional distance you're looking for. At the very least I recommend going for Hanako's bad ending. Her path is short, you won't see Emi much, and that particular bad ending carries a certain importance that the other path/ending combinations don't. Though I should warn you that although each playthrough gets easier than the last, Hanako's bad ending hits hard.

[djuroi]

I think i understand why im feeling so hard. While playing the game i was forming a bond with the character Emi, however i didnt notice it at the time. When the game ended ant the credits rolled i realized i had formed a bond, only for it to be taken away from me. I feel like a part of me is missing. I mean, ive always thought while watching an anime "hey, shes cute" or "hey, shes really funny", but ive never been like "no, dont go, i need you", am i crazy or is this normal as well?

[OtakuNinja]

I think i understand why im feeling so hard. While playing the game i was forming a bond with the character Emi, however i didnt notice it at the time. When the game ended ant the credits rolled i realized i had formed a bond, only for it to be taken away from me. I feel like a part of me is missing. I mean, ive always thought while watching an anime "hey, shes cute" or "hey, shes really funny", but ive never been like "no, dont go, i need you", am i crazy or is this normal as well?

You're asking if having a waifu is normal?

It depends on who you're asking. I'd say it's perfectly fine, seeing as I have 15.

[djuroi]

The thing is, i dont still "love" her, it just came as a shocking realization that when the game ended i knew i had loved her, this sudden shock confused me, making me feel a mix of emotions. I just don't understand how i fell for a fictional character, one moment i just wanted to hold her the next i was realizing shes not real and the emotions associated with her weren't real either.