Do I treat this topic for what it says on the tin or do I run the risk of coming off as a preachy asswipe, like some other poster I know.
Meh...I'm a glutton for punishment tonight I guess. You're probably not going to like what I write here, but you did ask for opinions and my opinion of Hanako's bad end cannot help but be closely related to thoughts on my own past and on yours too, since that's the way you started this topic...so...
Zezin wrote:That that the SAY. But you can prove yourself all you want but for all public schools care you are just something that gets in the way of other students.
Don't prove it to them and don't prove it to some anonymous forumites like us. Prove it to yourself - that's all you really need to do. And before you say: 'I already have,' the answer is - no, you have not. If you would've, then you would not have exploded in exactly the same way as Hanako did, but would've told your friend in a firm (not shouting, but merely the epitomy of the phrase 'loud and clear') tone of voice that you are going to be fine for now and that he has to leave this instant. And if he still wouldn't have listened, you would've gone to your parents and told them that you don't want him in the house and, if they were anywhere half-decent, they would've backed you up on it.
I am certain of this much, because I honestly wish I had done something like that back when I was in that position, or even just that I would've had that latter option. Because when I exploded, like Hanako did in her bad end, at my parents out of my own sheer frustration at not having enough space, I was so certain back then that, if push came to shove, I could still run away from home with everything I could scrounge up and take my chances with the streets or somesuch. Every time I yelled at my parents and as they yelled back fooled me into feeling like it was true beyond any kind of doubt. And every time I exploded the worse I reacted to the situation at hand, blindly believing that I can take care of myself all on my own.
Now, almost a decade later, all I can say is thank fucking Christ my parents never pushed me to that point. Because the streets would've killed me. And, autism or not, it's no different with you. You can think and think that you don't need any help at all, but you'd be wrong. Everyone needs help, because we are all human. It's just that, in your case, that help has to sometimes (not always!) come in the form of getting enough space as opposed to people pushing you to do things you don't want to do. If you don't get that space, you explode. And the result of that is that it drives people away from you...but all too often it drives them away from you for good before you know it. Now you might think that's a good thing...but trust me on this - in 10 years time you will feel very differently.
This is because, once you'll eventually get that space (in my case it was when I moved out of my parents' house, but at your age that might not be a smart option), you have to ask yourself pretty much exactly what Crud posted. Do you consider yourself a human being or not. The tempting answer may be 'no', because you have autism and with so many people treating you with pity, and in spite of you hating it, it must be true...right? *sigh* Even if it were true (which it is definitely not), then that decision, if coupled with everything you've posted on these forums that reflects your attitude...I can tell you now, with absolute certainty, that answer won't lead to anywhere good.
So once you get some space, be sure to say 'yes' to the question wether you're a human being or not. And once you recharge your batteries, so to speak, act according to that answer by finding people who interest you or who are interested in you in ways other than merely pity. And once you find them, if they should falter in their judgement and do what Hisao did with Hanako in her bad end, don't explode at them again. Instead of being doomed to repeat it, learn from your past and just tell them clearly that you need space and that you'll talk to them later. The way I eventually learned to do with my parents.
Above all else, I'd say keep Crud's thoughts in mind. Consider other people's point of view before acting rashly. Or at least try to. Who knows, if you start pretending to consider other people's points of view before acting...you might just start doing so by accident.