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by Umber » Thu Feb 07, 2013 7:50 pm
Answering OP.
Depressed? In a sense. To be honest, I'm usually depressed (issues and whatnot, not suicidal, no medical attention necessary), and Katawa Shoujo has put my life on hold, but at the same time, pushed it forward. In three days, I've only done two story arcs (Emi/Rin), yet my heart has been a nonstop tsunami of emotion. I would say earthquake, but that might insult Hisao THUMP THUMP THUMP MOTHERF///ER
This VN connected to me in more ways than one. Honestly, it was surprising. I, myself, have moved to a new school quite a few times, but unlike Hisao, I did not find and was not offered a companion. Wasn't as lonely as Hanako, but I definitely had (and still have) the hair-over-one-side thing going on. I also joined Art club those years, albeit with more success that Hisao. Or did I? My art is, after all, an interpretation. Regardless, the teachers, both in KS and IRL, were equally insane.
Family and friends are close, but few and far between. Like Emi, I lost my father in a car crash, and it was at this arc, my first one, that I really began to become emotionally connected. I have my limbs, but regardless, no "Dad" in my life. I lost him early on, so I don't remember much, but the thought of him still saddens me. My mother and I share this pain deeply.
Hopefully for you, this will wear off quicker than it might for me. Most of my life has changed because of this VN, and I'm striving to make those changes long term, unlike most of my post-[impacting story here] motivation bursts. I already loved running and sketching to begin with, and I'm working on those more, fitting in daily runs (I gave up on those frequently in the past, but provided with an inspiration...!) and lots of drawing, but sad to say I'm still as 'meh' about school as Rin. Nor as overly-cheerful and energetic as Emi.
My heart still aches. I went to school an emotional, sleep deprived shell of a human. However, my prediction is that it will turn into inspiration, that actions being done during this period of distress will stay long after my heart and mind finally settle down.
I've typed too much. First Post syndrome and lots of feels don't make a good combination. My point is that you should be fine. Most, if not everyone, seems as though their lives have been changed for the better, and I'm hoping us newcomers will follow through.