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by Terrathel » Mon Feb 20, 2012 11:40 pm
I never saw a psych in my life, I might have been diagnosed with that or a great deal of other things in my time... I always figured it was... well I hate to sound arrogant, but an advanced mind. I absorb information like a sponge, and can mush concepts together and connect the dots more rapidly than many I know. I can extrapolate meanings from body language, and text, and tell you about people without even speaking to them. I do have distinct trouble memorizing, especially if I can't convince my mind it's important, like... names, or... history..... or anything related to time, which doesn't really exist inside my head... and I never did homework, it was redundant and therefore pointless.
I would see and extrapolate things, try to talk about it, and nobody would see what I was saying, I figured they were too stupid. I would always lose people to the metaphors I used. And yes, I understood almost everything Rin said. at about 18-20 I had to install a filter on my words to 'dumb down' my speech so that people my age could understand me at all. At 21 (I'm 26 now) I forced myself to learn how to be sociable and to communicate on a friendly level, but still if I have nothing to say I say nothing. I've spent most of my time in my own mental bubble, never liked crowds, make me.... don't have a word for it, they... repel me? so I either leave or actively pretend I'm in a room that extends about 1.5 feet around me, the few times where people were crowded inside THAT room I nearly went ballistic.
Is asperger, a physical brain disorder, a chemical one or is it just another giant pile of BS that psychs use to label anyone who won't be 'normal?' Many people are afraid of people with actual personality quirks, so they label them. (actually asking, not a fan of most modern medicine)
Base personality: So much like Rin that it actually is funny. After high school I 'destroyed myself' what I always called 'rewriting,' taught myself how to speak to people so that they could actually understand me.... mostly. And edited in some of Shizune's direct, focused, aggressive competitiveness.