I did not read all the 56 pages of comments here (what with having recently finished looking through the 194 pages of the art on the art site thingy <name escapes me what with having been up all night and it being as of this sentence, 7am.) BUt I think some people thought her disability could be something pertaining to Asperger's Syndrome which is a form of High Performing Autism.
I shall try my best to not going into too long of detail of myself, as I will just be repeating myself, however I shall provide links so you can read my life story and understand me better.
1 Part
http://ks.renai.us/viewtopic.php?f=13&t ... =15#p66311
Another part, or maybe could be labeled part 2?
http://ks.renai.us/viewtopic.php?f=13&t ... =30#p66825
Anywho, to people thinking Aspergers is only a mental disability, allow me to use myself as some examples of why it can affect the physical body.
Being one who has ASpergers, tourettes and a few other issues. I do tend to doubt that that could be labeled solely as a "Mental disability". Granted, I do find the label Disability to be negative in my mind.
But it can have other effects as well, what with it being a neurological disorder. As we all know, (Or most I would assume/hope know), neurological orders involve aspects of the way the brain sends out the signals and interprets the signals. And of course, that these signals are in turn elecrtical, which in turn can have an effect upon the physical.
But, it can affect other areas as well.
One, is my extreme sense of smell, for me, things that have a chemically smell can literally choke me. It is as though the air density changed and "feels" different. I can't even walk through the detergent (And whatever else is stored in that isle) without pulling my shirt over my mouth and nose to act as a makeshift breathing mask, and even then I have to hurry through and get want I want, usually gasping for air afterwards. Same for smoke from ciggarettes & cigars & other things people can smoke depending on the legality of it where you live (referring to marijuana by the way. Sorry if being a bit like "I think you didn't need to tell us. But I am because sometimes I need people to put things as simple and blunt as possible for me.)
Another is that vertigo feeling or what I think has the label of vertigo. Never been one to figure out labels for feelings. Not good with labels in general really. I can handle and enjoy roller coasters, but things like being on the 2nd story (Or you can add more floors to the 2nd) of an area which looks over to the 1st floor my head feels funny and I have to pull away. I don't know how to accurately describe it. Maybe similar to what people call fear? And if you needed my help with something and you told me I had to get on a ladder, I would have to decline. Not because I don't want to help out, but because of my limitations on the ladder. I MAY be able to get to the 2nd step of the ladder, but anything past that is like way too much. Potentially white knuckles from gripping ladder, body shaking from nervousness, just an overall sensation of "I need to get the f*ck down from here NOW!" Even if in others minds it would be no more then say, 2 or 3 feet. I can handle stairs pretty well, maybe due to a lot of the time not having to "see between the lines/gaps" of the steps that long to where I get the feeling one would if on a ladder, not to mention the handrails help me out which I thing for me, negates the sensation due to it "Feeling safe".
There is also the aspects of heightened photosensitivity (sensitive to bright light). Many times I have to go outside, I have to wear sunglasses, otherwise I can get really bad headaches. I have also changed the color output on my computer screen so most of the time as much as possible, the default blinding white, or usually more like a dark grey or similar. It sucks having this because even reaeding a book can turn into headache city because of the light bouncing off of the pages can hurt my eyes/head. Not to mention, looking goffy in sunglasses while reading a book. Also is a reason why more times then not, my shades are always closed.
Not sure if this last bit has anything to do with Autism or just some form of general disfunction of my nervous system, but my sense of touch feels to me as though it is "off". I don't mean not working to where I feel 100% nothing, but rather off as in malfunctionoiing I guess could be a good term? I can feel temperature to some degree (Though other times, barely at all to where I barely feel my hand on my arm and if I were not seeing myself put my hand on my arm, I may not realize it had been there), but say if I were to slap my arm till it is bright red, most times, I would barely feel a thing. Cuts, yeah I usually feel. Though other times, when I thought I got, say a papercut or cut in general, I look and it was nothing there or wrong.
My fine motor skills are things that also suffer. Whether it be due to Aspergers, or some other thing due to the circumstances of my birth (Explained in detail in the first link). I am glad to have been born into a age where computers are around. My dad calls what my printing is to be "Chicken Scratch" if I do it at my own speed. Yeah, I may be the one who can understand and read it, but others do not. And the act of forcing myself to try and write (Print really) in a"legible manner", takes a long time. Writing out a sentence like this exact one stopping at this comma, might take me a good 5 minutes or more with having to stop in the middle becaus e my hand is cramping up. No matter how much I try, it is not able to become better for some unknown reason.
Some people with it may or may not suffer things like altered ..... speed maybe, of learning. But for me, I do seem to learn at a slower pace perhaps then others. And god forbid if you need me to memorize something. My ability to do that takes a LONG LONG time to ingrain into my head. It sucks, but that is how it is. Not sure if it has to do with Aspergers, or something else.
So, yeah. Saying that Aspergers/Autism is solely a mental disorder is something like, not seeing the bigger picture of how it affects others in a physical manner. I think it is both a mental and physical thing. As it has it's effect upon the physical.
Honestly, I have no idea if this is what Misha has or not. No idea what the Dev's are thinking about her, or whether they even decided if she has one or not. She seems interesting. After all, I am the type who hates the labels society forces us to put on each other because the labels can make someone think of someone in a negative way, which in turn makes people not even want to try and get the you that is the innermost you, not just what they see on the surface, or that their minds are thinking of due to preconceived notions from being told something. "Don't judge a book by it's cover" comes to mind.
Also, before anyone says it, yes, I do know I do type a lot. Just how my mind works, so I apologize in advance. Sometimes, getting my thoguhts to come out properly how I want to word them is hard, so there is the chance I am "Too wordy", so sorry about that.
Hopefully, my thoughts have come across in some way. Not saying I approve or disapprove if Misha did have her disability be Aspergers, if she even were to have one at all, but just thought to educate some of you not in the know of how it could be seen as more then purely mental related. Sorry if I come across sounding negative or pushy or something in some way. The wonders of the internet do not allow the transmission of feeling through words, again being the reason why they can be so misleading and constrictive. Anywho, later all. Enjoy the game and enjoy life & whatnot and I hope I did not bore you or something with my explanations. ^_^;
EDIT: It is about 726am and I forgot one other part that applies at least to me, probably not so much with Misha (Though maybe it could with Rin?). Something along the lines of altered time perception. All that stuff I typed, to some may thing could feel like it took that long, but for me, sometimes those things feel like insyead of say, half an hour, more to be maybe only five minutes, let alone not really even percieving time passing, but only knowing it has due to the clock saying differently. Could be one reason why sleep and me don't get along too well. But could also explain how my body somehow is able to function properly in a physically demanding job (Before my neck surgery I had recently) with only say, 2-3 hours of sleep at night. Granted, my body then does use weekends as mostly pure sleep time, but even then, the sleep may only be 8-12 hours depending when my body/brain finally said "Eh, I guess we can let ya sleep. I think we both are in a place to allow you that." But man, I don't know how to describe the sensation that is created when say your mind and body are feeling in opposite ways. Like, brain wants sleep, yet body feels "Buzzy" with pure energy, or where the Body just want's sleep & the mind is in some form of hyperdrive overclocked thinking mode about 50 different things or something.
So, yeah. Man, not sure what else I meant to say. Head feels funny. Maybe kinda like pillow fluff or something. I don't know. ^_^; And, it seems according to the clock, 10 minutes have passed. I should attempt some manner of sleep I suppose. So, take care everyone ok?